Finding Yourself on Hard Days

Today was a hard day, but my hard days aren't like most moms.  I am the mother of a child with severe trauma that occurred before she was 4 years old. Her brain isn't like mine or yours.  She is constantly in fight or flight, survival mode.  Running at 95%  to 99 %, it doesn't take much to tip the balance scales to crisis.Playing with blocks sounds relatively safe and harmless but that was before she knocked them over. The rage begins. Duck for cover, protect yourself and your child. You wait it out and try to avoid the “arrows” shot at you. But every word, strike, angry glare takes its toll.You are not alone momma. You are safe here. I see you. There is no judgement, it's okay to be vulnerable and let those walls down. I know I have those huge brick walls too. Okay, I know the pain, loss, grief and debilitating heartache. One day at a time, one moment at a time. Just keep going. Finding pockets of rest and healing seem impossible on these days. We have to find ways to build in self-love. Without caring for ourselves, who will care for our child? They need us to be okay. So do what you have to! Set boundaries, learn to say no, let the mess go once in awhile, and GRACE! Yes, that’s right! Give yourself grace along the way. You know that same grace you give everyone else. Do whatever you need to and tomorrow rise again with the sun. How do you cope on the challenging days?

Nature Therapy is one of my favourite ways to reconnect with myself, especially walking with my black lab.

He loves to swim